This weekend was so much work. It was great to have Jen around though. This week and as of late I can't feel God at all. It sucks. I led some worship this weekend and although everyone else swears it was great, I was very frustrated. I think i know the bone he's picking though. I'm scared to death of seriously asking him if Jen and are to be together. I feel like I'd be letting so many people down if we broke up. Like my hands are tied and I can't make a decision for all of the right reasons. It's all so frustrating. So I'm going to stop typing and go to bed.  ¶ 1:47 AM